Both of you really have a good appetite.
(1124, Yukimura)
"Wa naori machi?"
It is read as "Wa naore machi".
It's difficult.
Everyone gets...
...the same feeling of loneliness of their hearts.
Whoever they will receive love...
...and whoever they will give love,
people will be released from that pain.
One of the most popular sex symbols,
Marilyn Monroe...
...already left this world at the age of 36.
Was it an accident?
Suicide...?
Or else, someone killed her...
I understand. Then, please wait for a moment.
- Oh? Takahashi-sensei, good morning. - Good morning.
- Good morning.
Monroe had an exclusive psychoanalyst...
...which are unusual for Hollywood stars at that time.
The two of them were also alleged to have...
...a deep beyond-the-doctor-patient relationship.
This actress who had fascinated the world,
talked to a psychoanalyst...
and asked him something...
...about why she can't see people's hearts.
Who will be able to save me from not seeing those?
Whether a doctor,
a family,
a lover,
or any people,
all of us...
...live with the feeling of loneliness.
(Monroe Ga Shinda Hi / The Day Monroe Died)
(Episode 1, The Doctor Who Gave Light)
If I'm not mistaken,
here's coffee for you.
- I'm sorry. - Thank you.
I didn't know at all that there was a memorial hall for Fujishima Harashima here in Hanaori.
This is originally Harashima-san's villa which he used as his place in writing composition.
After his death, I open this place to the public as a memorial hall.
Back when I was a child, I was a big fan of him.
But because all the old things have been disposed of, (to be edited)
this place has become a mountain of treasure.
There are lot of his works that's now unavailable.
Are you the person who got bereft?
No, it's not. I am just a hired caretaker here.
Have you been all alone here?
Yes.
That feels lonely.
I'm used to it.
Sima.
Tobey.
I'm home.
Ouch!
Sorry, sorry.
You must be hungry now.
Let's have breakfast.
This is not good.
Kyoko-san?
What's wrong? Are you okay?
Have a seat somewhere. There's a bench at the entrance.
I have to buy...
Sima and Toby's food...
Those pet of mine...
I'm strongly committed for them.
They won't eat unless I'm there.
Kyoko-san...
Here is the pet food section.
Did you settle for a moment?
I'm sorry.
I must annoyed you.
What are you talking about!?
I am also...
...having a late menopause.
Suddenly, I'm frustrated for nothing.
It makes me feel sad.
I don't want to get old.
Well...
Thanks.
Since my husband died,
and since I've been working hard all alone,
I already feel exhausted.
Well, Kyoko-san.
Do you want to have a psychiatric examination and ask for a medicine?
Psychiatry?
I have a friend.
About a year ago, he was suddenly in a state of depression.
Depression...
He had no motivation to work.
It seems that he had consulted with a psychiatrist. Then,
he was able to overcome it...
...and got better quickly.
He told me that it felt like he came out from a deep pit...
...and when he got out, he felt very refreshed.
Do you know Hanaori Clinic?
Yes.
It doesn't only provide medicine for patients, but it also do psychiatric tests.
That doctor there... has a very good reputation.
He has a girlfriend named Nagano, whom he used to go with when they ride Shinkansen.
If you couldn't meet with that doctor, your life will be at stake.
Besides, that doctor...
...is a very dandy and good man.
Kyoko-san, please take a visit on that clinic. Okay? Please.
I'll think about it.
Are you looking for it now?
Do you want to have a reservation?
Ah... It's just fine.
I'll take care of that later.
Is that so? Then, I'll just give you the contact information of the clinic.
(Yukimura Kyoko)
- Here it is. Please. Okay, Ma'am. Please wait a minute.
Customer no. 7. You may now go inside the doctor's office.
Okay.
(Doctor's office no. 3, Tomoyuki Takahashi)
Before you talk to me, may I confirm your name first?
My name is Kyoko Yukimura.
I am Takahashi.
It may not easy for you to speak up, but just relax as much as possible.
Please tell me your concerns.
Okay, Doc.
Have you ever had a psychiatric examination so far?
I haven't yet. Not yet once.
That is...
Where should I start talking about this?
Then, I will ask you...
...some questions chronologically.
Okay, Doc.
If both your body and mind don't feel tired,
though it's written here,
let me know about it...
...more specifically.
Now, Yukimura-san. What's that thing that made you mostly feel tired?
Hmm...
Well, let's start with the symptoms from your body.
Anyways, it's a dull feeling.
I can't get tired all day.
I really don't want to do anything,
but my headache is awful.
Even though I take over-the-counter medicine,
it does not work at all.
What else are you concerned about?
I can't sleep.
Even if I go to bed, I just feel depressed.
I can't... hardly sleep at all.
Since I have to go to work,
when I think I can't sleep for a while,
instead, I can't sleep for the whole time.
What is your job?
I am the property custodian at the Literature Memorial Hall.
The keepsakes of Fujio Harashima, who is a writer,
is being opened to the public and displayed at the memorial hall.
I like the works of Fujio Harashima.
No. I don't know much about his works.
I didn't know that there was a memorial hall.
That's interesting.
Yukimura-san, are you the curator there?
No, that is...
It was such a good thing.
How is your appetite?
Because...
I don't want to eat too much,
sometimes I just give my cats some of my leftover foods.
Those kittens who have such owners are pitiful.
So, you live with your cats.
How old are they now?
Both are 12 years old now.
There was...
...a stray cat wandering around the neighborhood,
so I fed that cat.
Then one time, near my house...
...the cat give birth...
...to it's kittens.
I see.
Then one day,
that mother cat was gone,
...and the two kittens...
...were left behind outside my house.
Though we're a couple, but we have no children.
Still, my husband is really cute...
Is that so?
Your cats will heal your heart just by being together with them.
Yes.
Even when my husband died and I became alone,
those kittens help me able to live.
That's good.
Do you like cats too?
What I've been blabbering to you just now...
If you spill these to others, you will get in trouble.
No. Anything is useful for the examination.
I also love cats.
I kept them when I was a child.
The recognition that cats love fish...
...seems to be unique to Japan.
Eh?
Cats are typically carnivores.
Foreign cats...
...don't like to eat fish.
My cats...
I thought that fish were their favorite food,
but it wasn't that one?
Mackerel and tuna bonito, etc...
If you give them that too much,
they will likely have vitamin E deficiency which causes inflammation on some parts of the body.
Great!
Then, I have to buy steak and go home.
No.
I'm sorry, but I...
After my husband died.
I was alone in that house.
If something happens to my children,
sometimes, I wonder would that be.
If there's no food...
...or they became weak,
that would be pitiful for them.
Thus,
I'll just going to kill Sima and Tobey then I'll die after.
I'm... after all, a strange person.
There is no such thing.
I have no children and my mother is dead,
I have not also kept in touch...
with my father, so I don't know...
...where he is right now.
I am used to living alone.
Although,
I felt something...
...miserable things nowadays.
Losing a spouse...
...is painful for everyone.
You don't only feel sad,
but you feel anxious,
loss of feeling...
...or else, all sorts of emotions will get mixed up.
Yukimura-san.
You have been working hard after all these times.
I will give you some medicine.
One is a stabilizer.
It reduces anxiety and tension and makes you feel better.
The other is a sleep inducer.
Please try taking these two drugs...
...for a while.
Then, please tell me next time...
...how is your condition after taking those.
But, that is...
Doctor, can I...
...have an antidepressant medicine?
It's true that you are in deep depression.
But just because you're depressed, it's not the medicine you should take...
...for your condition now.
Even healthy people often feel depressed.
It's very common as they are living.
Yukimura-san, it's not a depression.
Is that true?
Am I not...
...really depressed?
Can I have that antidepressant?
Do you really want to take antidepressants?
I think you will recover gradually if you can get some sleep.
Thank you so much.
I feel much lighter...
...because you were able to say that.
I am happy to hear a lot from you.
I am relieved.
It was good...
...that I was able to muster my courage and come here.
Please tell me more about your concerns next time.
Okay.
If it's okay that you could make a reservation at the same time, a week later,
Okay.
(1124, Yukimura)
Hey, be careful.
Good morning.
Ah...
Hirai-san!
At the station square, I bought a delicious roll cake. Would you like to have this?
Thank you for your continued concern.
Today, I will look at the materials for a moment.
I made you a cup of coffee, so please drink it.
Ah. Thank you so much.
You look cheerful today. Did some good thing happened to you?
Actually, I went to a psychiatric clinic...
- ...the other day for some mental check-up. - Ah. Is that so?
Then,
my heart became clear, like a lie.
That's good to know!
So,
I thought I had to consult again with the doctor, Hirai-san.
I see.
I have to go to the hospital for a while.
If I'll be admitted, it would be nice I could attend on Monday at the hall,
but that's the day that I'll undergo examinations as what the doctor-in-charge said.
I see.
I'm sorry to selfishly ask this.
But for a while,
every Thursday afternoon,
may I closed this store during those days?
It does not matter.
There are few spring tourists on weekdays.
Thank you.
How will I be able to repay...
...your kindness to me, Hirai-san?
No need. I still have commission from it.
As a partner of the old man who makes spare time for him,
I'm really grateful to you, Kyoko-san.
My husband came...
...and I couldn't think about anything anymore.
I can't stand being alone in that house.
Emergency contact number.
You can use anyone's number.
Even your friends.
I'm fine about it too.
Ah.
Yukimura-san, when I have something to do, I need to make an emergency call,
but I can not contact you.
At that time,
please call me, Hirai-san.
Please introduce me to some work...
...where I do not know anyone.
How will I able to express my gratitude?
I immediately realized that you were a reliable person.
Besides,
there are no bad people who like Harashima.
Because...
...it is my belief that he has been...
...editor-in-charge for many years.
When I was a child, I asked my father if a cherry blossoms bird exists.
My mother said she hated birds...
...and she didn't care at all about those.
Pisuke.
It's a pretty name.
My mother... has a strong personality,
that she hates completely what she doesn't like.
No,
I was a person she hated.
I also disliked my husband.
But maybe,
I was just ranting...
...my complaints to everyone.
Even...
...after my mother died,
there was one photo of Pisuke that was...
...found on the album.
Why did my mother save a picture of Pisuke...
...whom she really hated so much?
I am always thinking about that.
That is?
I'm always making notes of what you were asking about me.
This past week, I tried to write out what I would like to talk...
...to my Sensei for self-analysis and my treatment.
Ah.
It is strange, isn't it?
But I am not good at doing free talk...
Free talk?
I can not speak well at all, even now.
- And I'm sorry about that. - No. You don't need to be sorry.
I am very happy to hear your story, Yukimura-san.
Please tell me more.
Sensei.
But...
I feel that...
I can not talk about Shima, Toby, and Pisuke...
...at this moment.
I really wanted to become a veterinarian.
Eh?
I'm just kidding. I'm sorry.
My husband and I were from Tokyo,
though I didn't know at all about this area,
but there's a company's branch office where my husband was working somewhere here.
My husband had been working for the head office for many years,
and now he was able to prosper there,
that's why, we got married.
So, it happened that way.
Both my husband and I...
...soon became in love with this town,
and we had discussed by ourselves about living in this place.
We have no children,
but I bought a small house in Hanaori.
I guess you will stay there forever.
Yes.
As soon as I moved,
I went to buy furniture for two persons.
That person is indecisive.
He can not decide anything at all.
Then he asked why is the clock...
...only a pillar clock?
But I insisted and said, "This is good."
It's a product of memories of the couple.
It was my husband's job to wind the spring.
I…
Because I didn't do anything...
Because I left it to that person...
Now, I couldn't...
...even figure out the location of the winding.
Is that so?
When my husband was hospitalized,
the wall clock has...
...stopped eight years ago.
I even now remember...
my husband's words...
We should have done a lot of fun things,
but it reminds me...
...that my husband who has been desperately...
...conscious of death, is only a scorned person to me.
"What do you know?"
"You're an insensitive woman...
...who does not understand people's feelings."
To comfort is being angry...
To be silent is just to cry...
The human being who's faced with death...
...wanted to hit someone for his fear.
That is...
I was his closest wife.
It was just that...
...I understand what's on his mind.
It is not only the patient...
...who is sick and in serious condition.
You are a kind person who takes your husband's pain...
...and accept it by yourself...
...as if it's yours.
When my husband died,
I didn't cry.
I was sad,
but I couldn't cry.
I finally got it.
I thought so about this.
You are an honest person.
Though it feels painful on your part,
you were able to...
...disclose it and explain it to me further.
And that's a good thing.
I think it's good enough.
It's not really nice.
Thanks to Yasuyo-san.
Well then, how was it?
Somehow, I feel that that clinic is a very special place for me.
I felt scared and hesitant to talk,
but it just went by as we go on.
It should be nice if I went there earlier. Still, thank you very much.
Well~ That's not it...
Eh?
What kind of person is Takahashi-sensei?
He is a very kind psychiatrist.
I able to talk about anything inside his office.
I became very talkative as we're having conversation.
Well~ That's not right!
What if he's a celebrity!?
- I don't know about that. - A twink?
I have never thought of him that way.
Do you feel...
...that your relationship has got deepen fast...
...when you have shared your secrets with each other?
You won't be able to say those to me.
Do you just talked to him about anything...
...and made yourself exposed?
It's because...
...it's the other purpose of his job.
Ah. But, Kyoko-san...
...do you know anything about him?
That's why, it's somewhat mysterious.
Ah.
You're so excited now, aren't you?
Well...
Please stop it.
I wonder what you are doing now... I...
Some time after my husband died,
I was watching a mountain documentary on a television...
...that I had randomly picked for watching.
It was the story of a climber...
...who challenges the first climb...
...of the Swiss Eiger North Wall at an altitude of 3,970 meters.
He slipped by mistake...
...and fall at 1,500 meters above the ground.
It is said that some of the people...
...who actually slipped were unable to be rescued...
...while they were in the air for two years.
Nobody was...
...in that snow-covered area.
How lonely was it for them...
...to stay there for two years.
I thought abotu that.
Since then,
every time I feel sick,
that picture...
...comes back to my mind.
I'm scared to imagine something like this.
I think I won't be able to understand it.
Well...
Sensei...
Ah, I'm sorry. I was a bit surprised about it.
Eh?
I understand.
I'm sorry.
Yes.
- Thank you very much. - Thank you very much.
This is a gift I'll give to you,
but I hope you like it.
- Well, then. - Take one more.
No, this is enough.
Takahashi-sensei, as usual, you still seem to have a lot of trust from your patients.
It would be helpful if you could become a full-time employee here,
but you won't, right?
I'm sorry about that.
Is Yokohama not giving up?
My apologies.
How are you now?
Where did you went?
Aren't you my personal psychoanalyst?
What are you reading?
"I like men."
"It would be nice if there was someone special for me."
Marilyn Monroe has become too famous.
What?
She has fans all over the world.
A lot of people love her.
But she's also a star who loves everyone.
But the truth is...
...someone alone can do it.
A person who only loves me...
...and never betrays me...
I guess... I was looking for such person.
It may be so.
Recently, I can sleep more often...
...without taking a sleep inducer.
Though when I feel a little upset,
I used stabilizers instead...
...in occasional use.
Is that so?
It looks like you're in good condition now.
There are no side effects.
And speaking of troubles...
Well, my appetite has increased.
Recently, I immediately become hungry...
...and hate it.
Why is it a source of trouble?
This side is kinda...
It has already stabilized enough.
Shall we say it as "graduation" this time?
Is this the end of the treatment?
Yes.
Well done.
All thanks to you, Sensei.
Thank you very much.
You will be lonely.
Eh?
This town is a nice place.
It seems that I can't get out of here.
Recently,
I came to think...
...about Hanaori-san and also you, Sensei.
Why is that so?
“Hanaori” is...
...originally for travelers...
...and local people working in the mountainside.
Don't hurt yourself.
Don't be attacked by animals.
There's a place for praying a person here...
...and being named...
...as Ojizo-sama.
Am I Ojizo-sama? I'm afraid that you have said that.
There are many descriptions...
...for Hanaori-san in the books of Harajima.
I have remembered that.
Thank you for helping me.
No problem.
Sensei too.
I took a walk around here yesterday...
...and found a small old Jizo statue on the roadside.
More than 200 years have passed since it was called Jizo.
It's an old Jizo where some parts of it...
...are lacking inexorably and it's expression...
...is no longer clearly seen.
Someone passed by along the dried wild flowers...
...which are just scattered aroud those statues.
Not only to protect someone's journey,
but also to attack someone's life...
...when passing this land.
People will try to protect themselves from numerous horrible things.
When he passed this land,
he offered flowers to the temple,
also to the Jizo statue...
...and clasped his hands together.
So I wonder... why I came to this town...
So I wonder...
...why I came to this town...
I felt that I understood now why I...
...continued to fell in love in this town of Hanaori.
There is...!
Such an old Jizo statue in front of my eyes remains silent...
...as if it was looking through the depths of my heart.
I was looking up at the sky that began to disappear like it's becoming invisible,
pretending to be incomprehensible.
Everyone...
...lives with loneliness.
But even if...
...what's in front of you in gets dark,
if there is someone who will hold your hand softly next to you,
It may be possible...
...to walk towards that light again.